Lyena's
Journal
1.12.2004
I've been feeling really down lately. No reason in particular, as far as I can tell. But down. And then I got an e-mail from my friend Dawn. It wasn't much of an e-mail, just a notice that she and her husband had moved and their new contact information. But mundane as it was, it was a reminder that someone loves me.
My life is hardly devoid of such reminders. I live with my mother who is always loving and my boyfriend is more devoted than anyone I've ever known. Still, even with so much love available, I sometimes feel alone. And then something mundane and ordinary happens... mundane and ordinary but somehow perfect.
I'm sure Dawn had no idea that I was feeling badly when she sent out her mass e-mail and no idea that it would arrive at just the right time and in just the right way to breathe a little warmth into my cold and aching heart. Makes me wonder about all the little things we all do in the course of living. We never know what effect we might be having.
I suppose that effect might be negative. I suppose our mundane and ordinary actions could be causing someone pain. But I think, mostly, that which is born of love, begetts love, even if it wasn't our immediate intention. And if we go about the chores of our lives motivated by our loves, we are bound to warm someone somewhere.
In any case, my world got a little brighter because someone who loves me, and whom I love, sent a completely ordinary note. It seems the gift of love, even bound in the most boring package, is powerful indeed. And I'm grateful for it.
Lyena | 22:50